Money Talks.

I don’t know about you, but I used to be someone who considered investing in personal growth a “waste” at best, and a “scam” at worst. I also used to be someone who considered investing in my ability to make, receive and allow more money to be a “scam”, and I looked at the teachers of it through that lens.

Now I see that view through a lens of compassion for myself.

Of course I would think it is a scam when I believed that that level of money was NOT available to me and never would be. Of course I would think personal development is a ‘waste’ when I think that I didn’t deserve time and space to nourish and heal my own soul.

Of course I did. And I see, and love myself when I needed to believe that, because I see how I thought that would keep me safe.

Safe from disappointment. Safe from rejection. Safe from the uncomfortable feelings of entering into the gap from where I was to where I wanted to be. Safe from having to hold that tension. Safe from what it brought up.

Eventually the pain of not having what I wanted became greater than the pain of staying where I was. I heard a quote the other day that really captured this: “pain pushes, until the vision pulls” (Michael Beckwith), and oh boy did that resonate.

Growing is our nature, and when we resist it, nature forces her hand. But when we heed…